Hey Ya’ll, welcome to another week of TGI Saturdays; 10 weeks away from our 100th blog hop party. I have shared alot about my life over the last 90 parties. I have shared about the changes and transitions, the lessons learned, my thoughts, ideas and emotions. I’ve shared my happiness, sometimes my fears, sometimes my struggles, etc.

Last week, I shared about my feelings of sadness. I was struggling with the thoughts that what I was doing here may not be worth it. As well as, struggling with the thoughts that my body isn’t where it should be and not knowing how to make it better.

I guess, I was discouraged by the big picture, the ultimate goal. When I needed to just focus on the journey and the now. Sometimes, who am I kidding, most, if not all the time, the now can be very scary, because we could never understand how God’s going to take us from here to there. Experience has shown me, so many times that God can pull a bunny out of what seemed like an empty hat.

I want to thank you for your comments of encouragement and support. It reminded me that blogging and TGI Saturdays (even if it is a small gathering) does matter and is worth it to me.

I saw a quote on Pinterest that goes like this:

Unease, anxiety, tension, stress, worry — all forms of fear — are cause by too much future, and not enough presence. Guilt, regret, resentment, grievances, sadness, bitterness, and all forms of nonforgiveness are caused by too much past, and not enough presence.

– Eckhart Tolle

This is so true. Right now, my life is more different and busy than it has ever been. Good busy. Though we have a financial challenge right now that concerns me. Mostly because it concerns my husband. I am praying hard and hoping for a financial miracle or a rich relative (we don’t have any) to swoop in and save the day. Nevertheless, things are alright.

My 6-month-old has not fully started to sleep through the night yet, but he did it once or twice this week.

They are lots of good things happening in my home right now. As well as a few challenges. Our hands are full and I’m thankful God sent helping hands.

Where is the life God is leading us to heading? Only He knows, but I have chosen to trust in HIM. This is alot harder to do when you don’t understand His master plan, which we never do. Why is that BIG financial breakthrough not here yet?

Sometimes I’m tempted to wonder, if God’s mad at me or something.

My husband asked me last night, if I believe that things can magical happen. To be honest, I answered yes I do. But I don’t call it magic, I call it miracles or God’s Grace or God’s Mercy. I believe in those things. I have seen those things time and time again.

It is hard to believe what you believe, when others may cause you to doubt. I want God to pull the rabbit out of the empty hat now. So, that they’ll see that I’m not just a dreamer.

Things are good. Things are very blessed, depending on which perspective you are looking at it from.

I just strongly desire the financial breakthrough I’m praying for. So, that there wouldn’t so much unrest, during the good that is happening right now. So, that we all could be more at peace and rest in the confidence that God’s got us.

I choose to trust. I choose to believe that God’s got me. Feel free to pray for my family, my friends.

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