Hey Friends, how’s everyone doing this fine Saturday morning.
I hope all is well. So I’ve been sharing with you little tidbits about my life lately. I hope you don’t mind. Hey, if you can’t share about your life on your own blog, where can you share.
My life has changed immensely from where it has been for the last ten years. Finally long term prayers are being answered one after the other. I am accustomed to having prayers answered but never have I ever experienced a season where so many big, long time prayers are being answered at once.
The most significant of these prayers were for my shackles to be removed. The strongholds that have held me back and parallelized me for so long. The thorns in my side (2 Corinthians 12:7) that I have cried out to the Lord many times and ask him to remove.
But there they remained for many, many years until I couldn’t imagine my life never not being in that prison. The strongholds of fear and anxiety (panic attacks). I was afraid of everything and everyday there was an internal hell I carried with me everywhere. I couldn’t even do the simplest things without being tormented by anxiety and fear. I would be washing dishes or sweeping the floor and my heart would be racing. My burden was so heavy and not matter how hard I tried I could get rid of it.
Until one day, I faced my biggest fear. My son died at 5 days old, but that story did not begin or end on the day he died. The experiences I endured leading up to and after he died, build a strength in me that one would not expect to come from a story like this one.
Instead of breaking me, it made me stronger, instead of mourning I celebrated, instead of grief I felt peace that surpasses understanding (Philippians 4:7), instead of pulling away from God in anger, my bond with Him was forged with the strongest material.
After that experience, I met some moms who also lost their babies, who wanted to connect with me in their grief, but I couldn’t connect with them. I had no grief just peace, empowerment, strength and celebration (for my time with my son) that could only come from God’s grace (2 Corinthians 12:9).
So where am I in this season of life. I am free, I am at peace, I am not afraid, I am not worried. I know God’s got me and my family’s covered. With that fear gone, I feel joy, I am happy, more patient (not always with my kids though), I am funnier and wittier than I used to be. I am more pleasant to be around.
Currently I am a wife (11 years), a stay-at-home, homeschooling mom of 5 awesome kids. I found a church I love, I’m in a homeschool co-op. I am more active and involved in things outside of my home and I’m not afraid of it. I love where I live (my community and my yellow sunflower house), I am finally making new like minded friends and I’m blessed.
Please don’t misunderstand my words and think I don’t have my challenges or concerns. I have just made a decision to take life one step at a time.
Apart from God I would not be any of these things and have any these things. He gives me my strength, wisdom, courage, faith, humor, and a heart filled with the fruits of the spirit (joy, peace, love and more). He has opened these doors and blessed me over and over, time after time.
I want to reflect light and God’s goodness, I want to give back, reach out and extend what God has given me to others. May the Father continue to guide me and give me strength to be ALL He made me to be. I pray that for you too.
Have a blessed weekend and week. See you next Saturday!
Peace, Love and Blessings to you.
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What season of life are you currently in and/or what are the good things/answered prayers going on in your life right now?